An object lesson from God

Written May 15th, 2010---
He (God) had me lie down on the gravel road yesterday. I was positioned there to gain a perspective.
To get eye level with the dirt. To see life from a rocks perspective. To see myself from His perspective.
So there I was lying prostrate on the middle of our gravel road. What I saw were small rocks, smaller rocks, sand, dirt and dust. From that position EVERYTHING WAS ABOVE ME. I felt vulnerable, small, and I began to identify with the gravel. (Thankfully the traffic on 70th Ave is virtually none existent.)
Compared to the universe we (the gravel and I) are BOTH mere specks. My ancestor Adam was made from The same material, and I began to get a feel (quite literally) for how small I am.
Then my mind suddenly went to the position I had assumed to see the rocks. Flat on my stomach, nose to nose with the dirt. The Bible says God Stoops to look at the heavens …I think to see us on earth he must have to get down on His stomach. quite the picture huh? Beyond that, just think of God becoming a rock! Wow, ok, so this is not new information, but GOD knows I am a visual learner so He gave me this picture to put myself in perspective. I often would get disappointed after a great time of reading God’s word alone with Him and feeling like nothing could get me down, but all of a sudden things would bother me and I would not feel like the same person who had just prayed “God your awesome and I want to live for you!” along with allot of other nice things. On the way home I thought to myself “Sheash, I am just a grain of sand I have allot of self importance for a grain of sand. It causes some heated discussions at home when this grain of sand’s will is crossed. I don’t have to take myself so seriously because I am completely and utterly dependant upon Him.” It is really amazing the worth that God does give us His children. It certainly is not earned of deserved. How great is our GOD!

Ps 84:5-7

July 23rd--- I have been helped immensely by those who have been willing to write music or books out of their pain. So I am writing today out of the midst of my pain.
God is here as I feel confused. God is here when I fear hurting others and being misunderstood. God is here and not punishing me when I feel like I deserve to be punished.
God is calling me to resist the Devil. (James 4:7)
What does that mean? Hold on a sec. I'll look it up..it means to "stand against, i.e. oppose:- resist, withstand." (Strongs Exhaustive concordance of the Bible)
This resisting stuff is not a one time deal I guess; and it's hard work!
July 26th ---
When you are struggling it does not always mean you are doing the wrong thing. It may be you have done something very right and Satan is after you for it. That is what (I now know) was going on for me. Though I felt such condemnation, it was not coming from my Father.
Submit to God. Resist the Devil. Neither of those things necessarily come with feelings attached to them. They are actions. Plain, not simple. Something you just do because God says so; and sometimes something you have to KEEP doing.
God is leading me by the hand through a valley full of shadows. There are no paths here but He is my faithful guide, which is infinitely better than a path.
Thank you Father.
I pray you will hold onto His hand through your own trials because He was faithful to me in the above trial as I kept coming/submitting to Him and resisting the devil. He knows my heart longs for Him even though my flesh is weak. He understands. He came and will continue to come to my rescue when I call. He will do the same for you!
"Blessed is the man whose strength is in You,
Whose heart is st on pilgrimage.
As they pass through the valley of Baca, (Weeping)
They make it a spring;
The rain also covers it with pools.
They go from strength to strength;
Each one appears before Go din Zion."
Psalm 84:5-7

Psalm 32:7 "For you are MY Hiding Place; you protect me from trouble. You surround me with songs of victory."

Hidden. Wow. What a thought. I am in Him. When I am, my fears begin to fade. There is peace here. There is a rest in the finished work of Christ. I am invited to taste the freedom he purchased for me. I am not forced, but invited to enjoy the blessings that come from the obedience of rest.(Ps 37:7) I may have many pressures impending but my spirit can be at rest in Him. Always.

I wrote that yesterday after feelings of painful separation from Christ and His promises.

I cried to Him, and He heard, answered and reminded me of His love and forgivness in the middle of my sin.

1 Thess.5:23-24 says, "Now may the God of peace make you holy in Every way, and may your whole spirit and soul and body be kept blameless until our Lord Jesus Christ comes again. GOD will make this happen, for He who calls you is faithful."

He is so beautiful. I want to be like Him; so I tell Him everything. He whispers truth back into my heart. I am not alone. I want to be where He is and He wants to be where I am. I will not be afraid. He is the only one who understands me perfectly and he can speak truth into my innermost being.(ie.gut)

I am so thankful for His nearness. I stumble but I keep coming back to Him; not so that He can heap more guilt on me...but so that I can receive His truth and power to change into my life.

I repent because I see His love.

What kind of love is this?

"Such love has no fear, because perfect love expels all fear. If we are afraid it is for fear of punishment, and this shows that we have not fully experienced His perfect love." 1John 4:18

"We know how much God loves us, and we have put our trust in His Love."vrs.16

God will be faithful for the rest of the journey. I will put my trust in His love.

My first post!!

Praise the Lord! In all my ways I will acknowledge Him because this whole life is a mystery to me.